NPW Self Curious: Letters to myself (or, When I grow up may I please have a dog?)

Dear past me,

When you said you were doing your best, you were. You weren’t to know your best would get better. You tried your best in the moment and it was good enough.

That’s right: your best was good enough. Turns out sometimes it wasn’t brilliant and sometimes it was kick ass, but that is normal.

Other people might have said your best wasn’t good enough, or thrown you a dummy life jacket when you asked for their help, but that doesn’t mean you weren’t doing your best.

Truth is, your best is the only answer you truly could have given to the questions that were asked of you, and you need to know that that was a good call.

Thanks for hanging in there,

Dear present me,

It’s frustrating when your head gets ahead of the game. I know. Your head is annoying.

You’re stuck trying to work out whether what you did was good enough or not enough. You’re stuck trying to work out why what you’re doing now isn’t good enough. And you’re also trying to tell yourself it’s okay, it’s enough. That’s before you see into the future and don’t know how you’re going to get there. That’s a lot.

Go find the fresh air: get on the yoga mat, run, go down the pub, laugh at some funny people, make some music. Weather the storm.

Hang in there,

Dear future me,

How’s it hanging?

I’ll be honest, it feels like hard work right now. Like I don’t know anything except what I know I don’t know. I hope our best got better because we found a way into the now, not because we ticked tasks off the list.

I hope that we found peace with the striving.

PS I also really hope that we got to go on Desert Island Discs and got a dog. Could you maybe prioritise those? xx

Claire Eadington geeks out on workflow management, performance and wellbeing. Claire’s TEDx talk about barriers to performance for exceptional women kicked off the 2017 TEDxWhitehallWomen event in London.

Claire writes a weekly blog, Self Curious, on NPW’s website.
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